Alone...

I've never been in a place like this before ever... I live by myself, I go home to an empty bedroom, an empty kitchen, no TV or Internet. I sit on my couch for an hour just staring at the random pattern on the stucco wall... I get up off the couch to go take nap, or drive down the street to go shopping for nothing... I'm completely frozen, going nowhere, working towards nothing. I am just alone to be me, and I've never been happier... How can that be possible? I hate being alone...